Pathetic pleas won’t mend you this time around

You

You’re falling out

Out of love

Out of line

How can you be so blind?

When it’s there

Here

In front of you

You’re what I need

You’re what can fix this

But you

You won’t let yourself

You don’t want it anymore.

You’re falling out

Out of love

With me.

And these terrible shades

Of lack of stability

Are corroding

The cheerful tones

of my adoration for you.

These terrible voices

Of if and why

Are whispering in my heart

Those tales of

Your gradual theft.

What have I done?

This

This was supposed to be different

It is.

It’s terrible.

You

I need you

I need

You

But you’re falling out

Out

of love

with me.

You don’t realize how much
I need you.
Love you all the time,
Never leave you.

Please come on back to me.
I’m lonely as can be.
I need you.

Said you had a thing or two
To tell me.
How was I to know you would
Upset me.

I didn’t realize
As I looked in your eyes.
You told me.

Oh, yes, you told me
You don’t want my lovin’ anymore.
That’s when it hurt me
And feeling like this,
I just can’t go on anymore.

Please remember how I feel
About you.
I could never really live
Without you.

So, come on back and see
Just what you mean to me.
I need you.

But when you told me
You don’t want my lovin’ anymore.
That’s when it hurt me
And feeling like this,
I just can’t go on anymore.

Please remember how I feel
About you.
I could never really live
Without you.

So, come on back and see
Just what you mean to me.
I need you.
I need you.
I need you.

Don’t you know It’s gonna be

We were finally able to do it, man.

It felt very strange, but amazing really.

I’m so very glad to have finally gotten that over with.  I’m so very glad that we’ll be able to do it regularly now, and that there isn’t anything wrong with me.

I love him so much. 

I do.

My baby, does the hanky panky

He is the cutest thing on this planet

The only rival to John that has ever, and will ever exist in my life.

Please, let us be able to make love tomorrow.

I’ve been good to you today, Hymen….you should  repay me???

Things are looking up.  Spring break is around the corner.  I’ve got a beautiful, splended hofner.  Such a lovely possession.  Even more lovely is my Christopher.  My darling baby boy.  He likes playin’…and colorin’.  But he doesn’t much care for looking at colors, apparently. hhheehee, silly boy.  This is glad.  I have a therapist now.  I like it better when we don’t talk about me…and when we talk about the stupidity of our society and government.  Maybe i just need to stop thinking about my situation so much.  Stop thinking.  But not all too entirely.  Not all too recklessly. 

Don’t be a stephanie ;]

Damn, I just need some summer. 

RELAXXXXXXXXXXX.

Let him do you!

*pet*

you know…it’s going to be alright.

He does love me.

I love him

Je l’aime je l’aime je l’aime!!!!!

We can only go up from here…I hope

I’d give anything not to lose him.

This will be fixed.  I can’t let this fall apart. I just can’t.

Either this ends, or it gets better…and I’m shooting for the latter.  Oh god, I hope he doesn’t want to give up on us.

I love him…

Cause I don’t think that they’d understand

I’d give up forever to touch you

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be

And i don’t want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it’s over

And I just don’t want to miss you tonight…

Mm

Yesterday, something broke

I watched a hammer undo its repairs

And as the remnants slithered by

I wondered what had become of our saintlihood.

Yesterday, a match was struck

I saw the wood twist and char

And as the grey bits at the end gave up

I lost faith in the strength of beauty.

Yesterday, no one saw

I watched them fumble in the dark

And as the last of them were lost to the trap

I accepted that nothing could be done.

Yesterday, a found boy was lost

I watched him in his tree

And as his patience ultimately ran thin

I realized that no one would come, before it was done.

Yesterday, tomorrow arrived

I felt the time become listless and rushed

And as it approached with brainless assumption

I knowingly followed it to the slaughter.

regression

I feel like I’ve slipped so far from the good place I had put myself in.

I need help with this one.

I need help.

Now.

Back to where we started

Smiling pictures

don’t do a thing justice